tension forever!

i am very stressed out since the beginning of this week but yet i don't know why. i lost my touch of humor and honestly, i'm considering the idea of losing my mind in a couple of weeks. as a muslim, i would prevent and forbid myself to resort in indulging my nafsu but if only for once, i could let myself enjoy gossiping around without the feeling of being sinful...i would have been very glad to absorb myself into other people's business. the dramatic climax of an unrequited love in my campus life..

taichi la.. yoga la.. my friends are all so funny.. having all these nicknames for people they like.. but i need not to mention here wether i liked sumbody or not coz i DO! haha..

i called him doctor.. he's so nice as a person and he got this friendly face. it's not like i really like him as in obsessed, i just like the idea of having somebody i would be happy to bump into. A happy face that is... since he always looks so happy and contented, i think it's okay for me to like him.

that's why i began to think that Allah is very Beautiful and everything He does is always perfect. Even somebody's face can make someone very happy.. it's truly amazing.

lately, i made a mistake. i accidently hurt my father's feelings. man, i think i should punch my face. my dad, he's the best father in the world (though we do have lots of misunderstanding with each other most of the times). i hope he won't get all sad and unhappy cause i don't want to see him sad because it always makes my heart hurts in a very discerning manner. i made a deal with my mom. we're going to buy him a perfume. THANK ALLAH! ALHAMDULILLAH!! there are discounts all over the shopping mall!! that perfume cost a lot..but i had a good cut..so it's worth it.
i fasted for 8 days to save up some money.. i hope he'll forgive me..

MOM, love you.. thanks so much for helping me all these times.. i'll love you forever.. if you didn't put in some money into my account bank, i'd probably die from hunger..

pening rasanyer tengkorak ni.. entah pasal? tensen tak pasal2.. tadi pasal hal kecik pun nak menangis padahal benda tu senang je nak selesai

kadang2 i pun ada rasa macam kena pinggir tapi itular..masalahnyer.. perasaan i je tu. nanti x pasal2 orang panggil i emo. itu yang i taknak tu.. dalam jangka masa seminggu je ni pun rasa macam blood pressure da sampai kat tengkuk ni.. tinggal nak putus je kepala ni. nant bile da putus, terpelantingla kepala beta ke sana sini, bagaikan belon yang terlepas anginnya.. haha.. tp i bukan belon, n angin itu bukanlah kentut.. haha..
k. la nak blah ni.. SALAM